Sadday

Basket gw kalah! Lawan klas 3 SMP! Huh~! Kenapa?? Gila gw sebel bgt.. Ntah kenapa kita maennya gak fit semua, ancur lebur brantakan gitu.. I've tried my best padahal. Jadinya gak masuk semifinal, boro2 deh, kalah di penyisihan.

Tapi gw jadi ga enak gitu ma temen2 gw, bis beberapa kali ada yg kena semprot gitu. Gak semprot2 amat sih, gw sewotin aja, bis pada susah diajak kompromi, lama2 gw kesel. Biasa, lagi PMS juga (eh, udah bukan "P" ya?).

Dan ada kejadian yang baru pertama kali terjadi di dalam sejarah hidup gw; gw collapse! Wow! Gw aja sampe takjub, kenapa bisa sampe segitunya ya? Binun, gw yang biasanya 'tough' jadi kleper2 gitu abis tanding.

Jadi ceritanya bgini loh.. Gw belom makan apa2, trus maen mulai emosi2 gitu deeh, panik point-nya kalah besar. Trus lari sana lari sini. Trus perut gw mulai kram, trus nafas gw ngos-ngosan, seperti layaknya orang asma. Trus.. Nyelot minumnya tmen2 gw dengan tdk tahu diri. Hiehie.

Pas 30 detik terakhir, gw gak tahan, dan keluar dari lapangan dan langsung tumbang di atas temen gw. Pokoknya sampe nafas juga udah sekarat bener deh. Hahaha. Ternyata setelah ditilik2, gw emang lagi dapet sih. Dehidrasi nih ceritanya. Huehehe. Gaya.

Hari ini juga ada kunjungan dari Sekolah Indonesia Singapura ke sekolah gw. Anak-anaknya cuma sekitar 160-an, hampir setengahnya anak2 skolah gw. Mereka diajak maen basket, trus kita menang. I thought mereka maennya jago.. Bis gayanya mendukung gitu. Sporty deh.

Tapi.. gaya tinggallah gaya.. Siapa dulu dunk yg menang.. Hihihi.

Jadi, bgitulah, gw lemes banget nih. Ngantuk juga, pengennya bobo. Sadday banget seh. Basket oh basket...

Empty Sunday

Wut happened to me this long 1 month??? Gila, puitis gak jelas bgini. Knapa gw jadi jijay bajay bgini sih.. Huhuhu. Everything is going to be normal, it just has to!

Hari ini gw bener2 melakukan kegiatan2 mem-babi-kan diri (baca: babi kan biasanya males2an). Tidur, baca novel, makan, ngemil. Tapi ga gitu2 bgt sih, ada lah sisipan nyuci baju. Hiehehe. Sampe at one point, gw bener2 bingung mau ngapain. Mondar-mandir di kamar, doin nothin. Silly. Akhirnya baca novel deh, pegel baca, trus tidur.

Skarang baru bangun deh, ngutak-ngatik template blog gw.

Besok skolah gw ngadain kegiatan tengah semester. Gw belom bikin bagan olimpiade matematika-nya (gw panitia). Great. Bakal begadang deh mlm ini. Sekarang kk gw lagi nyetel VCD Eiffel I'm In Love yg extended.

Dan entah kenapa, gw jadi benci bgt ama tuh film. Dulu biasa aja sih, but after I watched the half part of the extended version, it reminds me of sumthing sux in reality. And I better not to watch it anymore.

Bukan salah gw kalo skarang gw jadi ga napsu ngapa2in gara2 tuh film. Aneh. Tapi nyata. Doain gw menang ya, besok gw tanding basket. C ya!

How Can Someone Forgot a Love He/She Once Had? - by Molly

I'm glad.. Coz it's finished, at last. Umm kinda 'happy' a bit, and sad a lot. Jadi lega deh. Mungkin emg ini yg terbaik, and nothing to be regretted for. Hopefully.

Owwkayy, let's start a new post!! (?)

Aniway.. berhubung gw keabisan cerita dan vocabulary bahasa inggris gw (I miss my language!), jadi gw sisipkan lah satu yg pake bhs indo. Abis beda aja kalo pake bahasa Inggris, kesannya gimanaa gitu, mellow gak jelas (walopun bener).

Gw kan bukan tipe puitis. Hihihi.

Oh iya, gw udah masuk British Council, jadi akan segera memulai hidup 'sibuk', yang sangat tepat dgn keadaan gw sekarang. Biasa, lagi sadar akan kehidupan masa depan, yaa begini ini lah (hix, ga kuat).

Gw masuk level 7A lho, which means, cuma tinggal 4 level lagi gw bisa lulus Adult Class. Asik2! Smoga lancar dan temen2 kelas gw gak garing alias org2 gede smua. Sedih kan kalo gw ga dianggep nanti..

Gw punya archieve cerita orang yg nulis blog juga, namanya Molly. Gw dapet tulisan ini sekitar 1 thn yang lalu, yg masih gw simpen sampe sekarang. Emang bagus banget, jadi gw sisipin di sini. Tapi sekarang gw coba masuk ke bloGnya dy tapi udah ga bisa. Here it is..
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"How Can Someone Forgot a Love He/She Once Had?"
by Molly http://www.uncon.net/~molskee

Sebencinya seseorang sama mantannya, bagaimanapun mantannya itu adalah org yang dia dulu pernah sayang banget. Pernah dia kangen banget sama mantannya ini, dan ngerasa seneng bareng mantannya ini..

And something comes up.. They broke up.. And all of a sudden, he/she can't go on loving that person anymore.. You have to forget.. You have to move on..

And there comes another person to love again..

Sampe akhirnya kayak gitu terus sampe elo udah cape dan akhirnya menemukan seseorang yg udah siap untuk kawin ama elo.. But deep in your heart, do you ever forget the love you once had with other guys/girls? Does the love just vanished within time?

Pertanyaan ini udah sering dr gw smp muncul di pikiran gw.. Gw ngeliat kakak2 gw yang putus dr long time boyfriendsnya mereka ampe mereka akhirnya nemuin suami masing2.. Do they still have that bittersweet past love behind them? Do they still think about them sometimes?

Salah satu kakak gw ada yg punya cowo lama banget.. Katakanlah nama cowonya Doni ya (bukan nama yang sebenernya) dia udah jadian sama si Doni ini lamaaa banget. Si Doni ini sering ngajak main gw yg saat itu masih SD.. Sampe akhirnya gw jadi deket gituh ama dia, gw suka crita2 soal temen2 gw dll.. Kalo kakak gw marahin gw, si Doni ini juga suka ngebelain gw.. Sampe SMP mereka masih jadian meskipun belom ketemu kata2 'oke' dr bonyok gw..

Sampe akhirnya.. Ga tau kenapa menjelang gw SMA Doni ga pernah main ke rumah lagi.. Gw pernah liat kakak gw nangis2 di kamar.. Gw ga pernah liat mobil Doni lagi parkir di luar rumah kalau gw pulang dr sekolah..

Sampe beberapa lama kemudian.. Ada mobil asing yang mulai sering parkir di depan rumah gw.. Kakak gw akhirnya punya pacar baru. Dan dia jadi suaminya yang skarang.

Si Doni ga dateng ke pesta pernikahan kakak gw yang ituh.. Tapi dia suka dateng ke pesta pernikahan kakak2 gw yang lain.. Kadang kalau gw ngeliat kakak gw lagi nyusuin anaknya yang masih kecil dgn penuh kasih sayang.. Gw suka mikir.. Bertanya2 dalam hati.. "Does it still hurt? do you still remember him sometimes?"

Dulu juga pas kakak gw yang ini udah mo kawin besokannya (kk gw ada banyak ga cuman dia doang).. Dia sempet ngetok kamar gw pagi2.. Gw tanya kenapa.. Dia bilang mo pinjem baskom metal yang waktu itu gw pake buat ngeringin luka gw (gw waktu itu belom lama abis kecelakaan main jet ski dan sempet dirawat dirumah sakit)

Gw nanya buat apa.. Dia bilang 'gw mo bakar semua kenangan2 lama gw'. Siang itu di halaman belakang rumah gw, kakak gw ngebakar diarynya selembar demi selembar.. Dan semua kenangan2 yang ada di dalamnya.. Gw nanya "Kenapa musti dibakar?" dia bilang "gw mo kawin Mol, sama suami gw udah ga bisa ngumpetin apa apa"

Dan dia terus ngebakar.. Gw ngeliatin dia.. Di matanya ada perasaan sedih.. Nostalgic bittersweet gituh.. Cuma.. Dia tetep ngebakar satu persatu tanpa dibaca lagi.. Dan sesaat gw ngeliat dia juga kelihatan lega.. Dan bahagia.. There's a new life right in front of her..

Gw pun ninggalin dia sendirian..

Sampe hari ini gw suka mikir.. Kenapa kakak gw ngelakuin ituh.. Apakah dia meninggalkan semua kenangan dia di masa lalu? Ngebakar semua sisa2 kehidupan lamanya dan start a fresh new life?

or..

She just want to treasure those memories alone, deep in her heart, without any traces di realita yang bkl bisa nyakitin suaminya nanti? Ampe saat ini.. gw ga pernah nanya ke dia.. atau mention about it at all..

I just remember a quote from the movie 'Titanic': "a woman's heart is as deep as the ocean"...

When Will This End?

I miss the old you, boO. Come back, please? Back to the old you who used to be mine. The old you who used to love me. Before that bloody red new year..

We're going to fix it, rite? Isn't that what u've told me, boO? but you seem so far away from me..

Do I have to be the one who end it, so you could be free? Without you saying anything that could hurt me? (I wish I could read your mind)

End this before it's too late, boo. You know I'd wait for you, but if you dont want to be waited, why should I..?

Ersta 1oo1o5

Me and my boO~! It's our 2nd month's anniversay.. LuVu.. :] 

A Series Of Unfortunate Events

If u read my previous posts; the title is rite huh? Great-great.

Niwayz, I've watched the movie. That movie; the Lemony Snicket's. OmiGowd, it was awesome, the greatest movie and story plot of all time. I recomend you to watch it. I like its story, settings, and their actors. 4 thumbs up lah!

Realise it or not, I often like that kind of movie. Movie that has especially England's or Rome's classical settings, castles, old mansions, or gown. Enuff to prove I'm a true dreamer. Haha. But I'm okay with that ;]

The story is about the orphaned siblings whose facing many troubles since their parents' accidental death. They had their own unique ability to solve the mistery of their parents' death.

After all, actually what makes me impressed was its story plot. There will always be a happy ending in every lives, if we're always there for each orther, no matter what'd happen.

I've underlined 2 sentences that meant deep for me; the first is the dialogue between Klaus and his sister, Violet, when Klaus blamed their parents for their poor condition with their gurdian, Count Olaf.

I dun remember the sentence much, but it means: answers would never come before questions. And it would never come if you're not trying to find it.

When we're qustioning bout how poor our lives are, just remember that someday we'd figured out wut was the meaning for everything we've been passed by. We just have to be tough and patient.

And the second was; when Violet have to sacrifice her life by being Count Olaf's wife-in-law, instead of her sister's death. When Count Olaf was forcing her, he said:

"Klaus, you have to tell your sister that she's already fourteen, and it's time for her to realise that she couldnt get everything she wants. She wants her sister back, but unfortunately I want her to marry me so I could get all the Baudelaire's wealthy fortunes!"

Aniway Jim Carrey is surely a great actor (ga nyambung ya?), haha, I like his act. Maybe this movie wouldnt be as good as it is today if Jim Carrey didnt play Count Olaf. And now the books by Lemony Snicket would be on my top list when I go to the bookstore. Genius writer!

Owkay end of promoting of this film. Hehehe.